Shiny

When I think of something new, the word 'shiny' when it comes to new things.  Which is how I get to feel for the next couple of weeks, while I don't know what I'm talking about or what I'm suppose to be doing.  The introduction that I will be preficed with is 'new' at one time I would have hated it.  But after a childhood of moving and changing schools all the time, I learned to like the change.  Getting to reinvent yourself with every new group of people is appealing to me.  While I may not reinvent myself as much as when I was a child, I still get to set the image of myself however I like.

Walking through a city I am so familiar with and even seeing faces I'm familiar with has been a different experience lately.  I'm being marched around like a new puppy or even new purse ::I love each equally:: everyone I meet looks at me with the same look - Shiny and New.  I smile back like a new car in the driveway, saying the exact same thing the car would say...'You know you want to go for a ride and see what I can do.'

All of this reminded me of new relationships, something I realized I haven't had to put too much thought into.  I've known the people close to me for so many years and it's been a long time since I've even considered bringing new people in.  So I find myself having to brush up on the 'new people' social skills ::can't be rotten and rude like I usually am::  At least that's what I thought, until I came to the realization that I don't particularly care for people, which is why I have a select few I trust.  I've been quoted to say "I don't want to kill you, I trust you...you just need a little pain to teach you."  And while I enjoy creating curiosity I think I'll stay a mystery to most for now, I don't have energy for such shinanegans right now.

-n