Waves

What a crazy emotional day.  I've been loved, felt like shit, laughed my ass off, felt like a hero, fought back tears, found value in myself, hugged so tight I couldn't breath, pushed away so hard the wind was knocked out of my chest.  All ending with nothing more than me, taking it all in for what it is...each moment building my life.

The tear trails that once overwhelmed my palms now a distant memory, replaced with a content smile.  I'm so happy to be here, to learn from those who cross my path and to gain from those who share wisdom.

I thought nothing of it, light-hearted the whole way.  Taking each day, opening a new door.  I tripped first, but gained my footing better than before, in the same moment I let my hand slip away, never to be held again.  A break came making an un-expecting heart shatter like a glass ball dropped five stories to the ground.  Not only impossible to fix but how could you possibly find all the pieces.  While their not lost to myself, I'll keep them hidden for now.  Waves of emotion pass over me some sweet, some stinging, I still smile.

With the notion that right now I feel whole.  I made the decision months ago and it couldn't be more fitting for this moment, my next tattoo...  'True Form' language yet to be determined, right now at this point, I feel fully myself...some people never even get to a point in life that they can say they're completely themselves.  I'm at that point and loving it.

-n